#I feel like I have to finish this for myself tho

[luvssickk]

thinking thinking..

going to a state fair with my partner, it’s a hot and almost miserable day with how high the heat index is but we’re both bursting with excitement from what’s about to come- being quite skinny and petite, i don’t have much stomach capacity and they know this too..using this to their advantage as they make go from stall to stall to fill up on all type of sugary and extravagant fair foods. funnel cakes, cotton candy, corn dogs and fries- fried oreos and milkshakes and lemonade…a recipe for disaster really, i’m already full from not even half the funnel cake but they make me finish anyways because “good puppies don’t waste their food.”

by now if it wasn’t for the sweltering heat, the sheer amount of food in my tummy that wasn’t even digesting properly was certainly making me feel dizzy and sick. every step and new bite of food making my stomach churn and roll- wet burps thick with sugary sludge and chunks of greasy fair foods forcing their way up my throat that i have to choke back because “you wouldn’t want to make a mess in front of everyone here now would you puppy?”

they decide we’ve done enough walking around- let’s get on a ride instead…that rickety rollercoaster with questionable safety measures looks like a great choice. while we wait in line they make me guzzle down a souvenir cup worth of milk tea because “it’s really hot out puppy, you need to stay hydrated..”

i’m leaning on their shoulder now, clutching my bloated and churning tummy as i try to fight the nausea and hot waves of food trying to force their way up- everything curdling in my stomach in the worst way possible. they rub a hand on my tummy, giving it a gentle strokes before pressing down- getting off on the way it lurches been their hand and the gag i have to conceal since people are watching…a hand clasping over my mouth quickly as my cheeks puff up full of vomit that tastes like a cursed concoction of all the treats they had been stuffing me with.

as we’re getting buckled into the ride the safety belt gets pressed down into my sick tummy- making me gag again, a small amount of sick dribbling out the corner of my mouth- my puffed out cheeks making the worker give us concerned look but my partner assures them i’m fine.

the rickety ride begins. honestly im relieved that we’re on it because i know their is no way im making it off without getting sick, it’ll force its way up out of me and i can’t protest- im hoping that maybe it’ll make my nauseous and bloated tummy feel a bit better.

not even halfway through i’m puking all over my lap and the rollercoaster cart- the speed combined with the heat and all the disgusting fair food i had been stuffed with forcing my stomach to retch up all of its contents, making me projectile vomit thick streams of undigested food and drinks all over my clothes. i can’t even bring myself to care that im making a mess and that people are watching- only thinking about the relief i feel from the pressure on my swollen tummy finally easing as wave after wave of treats force their way up my throat.

my partner apologizes for the mess to the fair worker- the staff has seen it time and time again and they really don’t care honestly..i hang my head in shame, trying to conceal my arousal from getting sick all over myself as my partner guides me back to the car- praising me for how well i did as they get me into a fresh change of clothes and clean up the chunks of vomit that were staining my lips and chin..pressing soft kisses to my still sick tummy before starting the car to take us back home. of course i get sick several more times throughout the evening, into a bag as we drive home and a few times more in the shower- chunks of sugary fair food going down the drain as they fuck me against the shower wall, too eager to keep their hands off of me as their thrusts and their perverted hands gripping my tummy force up the last of the food they made me eat- the movements too much for my sick stomach.

just a thought tho hehe :33 (need this to happen to me asap)

[yali-the-sloth]

If someone told me last November that a year from then I’d be procrastinating doing anything BUT continuing my playthrough of the newly released dragon age game I’d call them crazy. I’m extremely tolerable to bullshit. The amount of objectively bad media I am able to enjoy is really high. I have been willing to forgive BioWare for a lot of bad game dev decisions. But not for the bad writing. So here we are.

I have not opened the game in a week now. Something broke in me when after 50 hours I finally reached act 2. So many people said it’s supposed to get better starting from that point. But I’m sorry, what exactly got better? Why is the story suddenly just ‘go do your companion quests!’? Where’s the freaking plot???

I can’t get rid of the feeling as if the game has been chopped into pieces at the last minute, rearranged by throwing out like 3/4 of the writing bits and then hastily sewn together.

[ryllen]

something i promised on my kofi 6 months ago... 🫠

[skunkes]

a sturdier toy

[gemharvest]

And goodness, you're bleeding, what a wonderful feeling You're down, and you're pleading, my head is just reeling

Goretober 2024, Day 2: Sharp Objects

[j-esbian]

maybe the real voltron was the friends we made along the way

[mueritos]

quick lil post about coming back to art full-time while also being a full time MSW student….it can be possible 0.0

anyway ty to everyone who has supported me over the years i wouldnt be able to go back to art without you all

[azaracyy]

to the next stage of our adventure! digimon survive week 2024 day 7: post-game / future personal thoughts under the cut - less about the artwork and more about shuuji and lopmon themselves. a long rambling containing major spoilers and heavy topics. will cause whiplash. proceed with caution.

other than the fact this may be boring and long-winded, cw and tw: there will be mentions of self-harm and suicide. if these topics make you uncomfortable, please step back. if you're sure, then alright. i'm aware this is a weird place to ramble about shuuji and lopmon considering the notorious highlight of their story would match the themes of day 5 (villains) and day 6 (dark & loss) better. unfortunately (ironically?) i never planned to feature them for those days, so... pretty sure i'm not the only one feeling this, but when i discovered that a good part of the fandom seems to loathe shuuji with utmost passion, even after they claimed to have completed the game, i was confused. the way his death happened and (understanding) the cause made me uncomfortable for a while, but never drove me to the point of hate... once i recovered from the initial shock, what i felt towards him was more pity, then respect (on truthful route). i feel shuuji should have been one of the most appreciated characters in survive. yet it was the opposite that happened. (between you and me though, knowing there was this discourse with the fact digimon survive is a visual novel, i'm not that surprised it turned out this way...) from my point of view, lopmon evolving into wendimon then killing shuuji symbolizes suicide, the act of taking one's own life. it was the climax of shuuji's mental breakdown, leading him to basically self-destruct, causing damage to everyone around him and ultimately himself. lopmon evolved, just like he hoped. but failed to do it like other kemonogami partners (maintaining control of themselves and fending off enemies). the next and final outcome was death, through his own partner actually eating him alive too. it reminds me how when someone thought they have prepared well for something important yet it failed spectacularly, the devastation and frustration would eat them in the same way from inside. and they probably would for one second think, "i'm better off dead". the more i pondered about it, the more it hit home, so of course, the last thing i could do is hate him, when his struggles sound similar to my own - having to rely on consistent achievements to prove your value, to feel you are worth living and not a waste of resources. the part where shuuji went all abusive on lopmon felt like the equivalent of pushing yourself to the extreme to reach your goal, to the point of neglecting your own needs. it's like a student so absorbed in their study, sacrificing food and sleep, until their body eventually snaps and shuts down for good (...this in fact happened to one of the students at my previous workplace. she was in her last year of high school. life was just about to truly start for her when her classmate informed us of her sudden death). even in truthful route where shuuji and lopmon survive that point, things aren't immediately nice and easy for him. you can see that he still has self-doubts, and what i think is impostor's syndrome. he could be making a great contribution to the team and still put himself down for having done "nothing". i have found it interesting that artists and writers tend to be especially fond of shuuji. so perhaps it's not just the matter of one's upbringing - whether you were raised in a harsh, competitive environment and/or with family with (unreasonably) high standards so you can relate more easily to him - but also whether one can see just what every struggle shuuji and lopmon went through symbolizes shuuji's mental state. out of all survive characters, i think shuuji and lopmon pulled off this thing called "surviving" the hardest, no joke. which is why i almost always gravitate to drawing them happy because that's what they deserve :') after all this, what i also would like to say is, it's okay if a character makes you uncomfortable. it's okay if you hate a character. but never, ever bring down the character to people who like them or even consider them their favorite or comfort character. if you must, do it in your own space and only with like-minded people.

[arinmoss]

Hatsune Miku doodle

[bonetrousledbones]

ok so. i was cleaning out my pictures folder today. and i happened to come across a sketch from 2021 that may or may not be related to the same concept as this. but like a. darker, edgier version. if you catch my drift.

but the thing is i do NOT see myself finishing it, seeing as it's already been nearly 4 years since i sketched it out and i'm still fighting the burnout demons from hell and all that. but it IS very silly to me and frankly very good timing for me to have found this sketch right now

so basically what i'm wondering is would any of y'all be interested in like a dtiys / open collab type of thing with underfell papyrus as shadow the hedgehog

here's a hint of the sketch if it helps

i've admittedly already tweaked it a good bit & i'd probably clean it up a lil more just for clarity if i actually go through with this but for now i just wanna see if i can rope anyone else into being insane with me. its actually pretty fun messing with the design & proportions to try and fit the silhouette of a very cartoonish hedgehog and i'd love to see other ppl's takes on it

[lunarharp]

figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..

[silusvesuius]

this tree from my new drawing looking goated afffffff 👑👑

[mabaris]

so i uh. might publish a small fanfic for the first time in years

[xxplastic-cubexx]

ON AVERAGE HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO DRAW / RENDER YOUR ART BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE YOU PRODUCE MASTERPIECES LIKE HOTCAKES AND I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR YOU

ermmmmm it depends !!!! maybe like an hour or two from start to finish if its just a simple drawin' but if it's something fully rendered or im making multiple drawings/a character doodle page maybeeeeee like five-six hours.... idk ....

[mylove-thresher]

What illegal downloads from sketchy websites and someone you miss leads to

[sunnibits]

*crawls out of an open doorway covered in blood* I finished my Assignment